I’m not in control
So next week I have to go to the hospital for blood tests and my first post major cancer surgery checkup.
This morning I woke up so nervous about this that I have to remind myself of some stoic wisdom.
Specifically, this quote:
Some things are in our control and others not. Things in our control are opinion, pursuit, desire, aversion, and, in a word, whatever are our own actions. Things not in our control are body, property, reputation, command, and, in one word, whatever are not our actions.
~ Epictetus
I’m not in control of anything regarding my tests next week. Nothing is in my power to influence the results.
I’m not in control and therefore I can just sit here, take a couple of deep breaths, meditate on Memento Mori and just keep creating.
That’s the only possible choice.