Neko

Sylvia's Studio

Would I do this if this was my last day?

Reflecting on my post about memento mori, I came up with the question above.

I have a brain that leaps all over the place and it’s constantly focusing on the next thing instead of something I love.

For instance, this week I got sucked into a game that I found at random.

It’s not even a game like I use to play, it’s rather violent and is filled with “get this cool pack for 100 dollars and you will be ever so awesome”.

I hate that so much, but I still played the game because I liked the mechanics.

And now I had this thing where someone posted about diamond painting and I thought: oh that could be cool.

I stopped myself before I hit buy on a beginner diamond painting kit and asked myself the question: would I want to do that if I knew it was my last day?

Hell no. I would want to spend time with loved ones, work with creative tools I love, play my favourite game (Stardew valley).

Asking myself this question when I want to do something new is about focusing on what brings me joy.

It’s about making each day I have left, count.

So no, I'm not going to pick up diamond painting, and I'm also no longer playing the violent game.

I'm writing, though, and that brings me joy!

#inspiration #stoicism