I don't want to journal
* I don't want to journal
* My handwriting SUCKS
* I don't think it helps me
* I hate my words so much
* Why do I even do this?
* I could do so many other things
* Oh god, it is so stupid to write! Why did I never realise that?
Do these snippets of inner dialogue sound familiar? I really detest it when this kind of jabbering just overcomes me when I sit down to write.
In this example, I talk about journaling, but it is universal for me.
When I sit down to write a blog post, it happens.
When I want to write a poem, story or novel, it happens.
When I edit, it happens.
Examining these thoughts brings me to one conclusion: it's self-sabotage, pure and simple. It's my whiny mind getting in the way of my words.
Sometimes, like in this instant, letting the mind whine is a good thing. Why?
I once wrote, "The more want to write, the more I whine."
The other way around is also true. The more my mind whines, the more I want to write.
And that's why this blog post exists. That's why every blog post exists. No matter how much my mind whines about no one wanting to read what I write, I keep posting.
It makes me feel like a warrior.