On old blog posts (and wins and losses)

I’m slowly adding my old blog posts to my blog, fidgetting with the format and adding doodled headers I made years ago to every post (the musings one above being one of them).

This all takes time, but it’s SUCH a joy!

I’m really loving rediscovering the poetry I’ve shared on the website over the years.

But there are also posts that are… rough around the edges, I would say, from the start of me blogging, with ideas that no longer align with me.

Not that they are inherently bad, really, just… strange to read, for me.

But I’m keeping them anyway. They show growth.

I’m keeping them because there are also posts that show what I’ve lost. I can see the progression, too.

Before 2018, lots of posts on play and creativity, after 2018, much more musings and introvert mumblings until, a couple years later, I start on my path towards joy again, and the posts get lighter. But, not as light as they were when I was at the height of my creativity and playfulness.

In short, I lost my deep connection to my inner child, or maybe the better way is I let myself lose the playfulness that’s such a part of my writing and art.

Reposting all the blog posts is a gift in that, seeing both my growth and what I desperately want to gain back.

So, if I’m totally honest with myself, part of the reason why it takes me a while to add the blog posts to my weblog is that I’m editing them and reformatting and adding headers.

The other part is that I re-read a lot of the stuff on play and wild creativity and I can feel something snap into place inside of me.

Such a gift!